Everybody hurts

Those who've followed me for years know I have a passion to express myself in poetry, music or photography. I remember the post I did compiling all the lyrics and songs over the years that reminded me of a moment during my life, good, bad, indifferent.

This song has been with me a long time, it calls to the very tough days in life, the tough challenges, the things resting on your back so heavy it's like your back could break. But the words, well, they call out beyond the challenges and ask you to hold on.

And right now, all I can do is sort of hold onto reality of where I am in life even if it's not everywhere I dreamed I would be.

Everybody Hurts, REM

When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on
Don't let yourself go, 'cause everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes

And so this embodies all that I feel right now, more so now than with almost any other challenge in life. The night is mine alone, both literally and figuratively. I need to hold on, to anything that's solid under my feet.

Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go, (hold on)
When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on

Sometimes everything is wrong, even when you've done the right things for the right reasons. Life is not fair.

'Cause everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone

I'm taking extreme comforts in my friends, the new ones, the old ones, but all the same, the true ones. I do feel so so alone, so sad, so lost, but my friends, well, they remind me of the important things in life and they remind me that sometimes bad things happen to good people.

If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on
Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
Everybody hurts. You are not alone

What more can I say. I believe there's a reason there's been so much outpouring of support, so much kindness in the midst of a bit of judgement, so much sharing of feelings. I believe it's because so many of us could be in my shoes and so many of us realize how painful this is to go through. This is without a doubt in the top 2 losses in my life.

May we all never feel this sad.
 
I can't say it enough. It's going to take a long time to heal.