it's the end

1,468.

That's the number of days I waited in line to get 'the call'.

And instead of hearing her name, finally and seeing the picture I've seen in my head over and over again, my call went something like this:

We are so sorry to tell you, but China has reversed their decision, has changed rules and they will no longer accept your file.

Magpie is after all of this time, forever resigned to being a figment of my imagination.

And to think, I was <60 days from my referral.

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Normally Photo Friday has it's own post on Friday. But not today.

I had this picture in a post for today that I had done ahead of time. What I wrote no longer seems appropriate given what's occurred.

Instead I'll say this: Made it out of the box, never out of the bag.

Man I really started to believe it was all coming together. I did believe that Magpie and I would form a family this summer.

Even her nursery was starting to form a strong image in my mind.

Saturday I am volunteering at a lab rescue event, I can only hope I find some salvation in it.